9th of January 2009.
Contemplation
More than a year has passed since i had written anything in my diary. Reason????????? Am i sharing my thoughts and feelings more often with people around me? Or the intensity, with which I live my life, has decreased????
Getting up at 8.00, 9.30-waiting fro the bus, 10.30-reaching to the office, 6.30-leaving for home, 11.00- sleeping time. Hours & hours, days & days and 7 months have passed. If i look back at this time and ask a few questions to myself then i am sure that results would be quite alarming. so i would definitely like to take this opportunity to question myself.
Forget taking pride but what are those few things which have given some happiness & satisfaction while and after doing it? *conceiving the overall spatial and elemental language for drishti consultants was fun*working out sports complex at the conceptual level was quite a fun task. *enjoyed myself while working out the installation for the kensigton reception lobby.
Except these three things i have not enjoyed my run in the profession. Off course learning and playing harmonica (mouthorgan) has been the most exciting and satisfying experience by far.
So what have i done? What am i doing? And hence a few more implied questions why am i doing? Or is this what i want to do in my life? Or where am i heading towards?
These paragraphs may have stated personal experiences and observations. But looking at the matter from a macro level, it doesn't remain only as an individual’s frustration. Hence the whole discussion leads me to a different set of questions. Certain questions hold much deeper meaning than just a definitive answer. In fact these kind of questions provoke a new thought process. Initiating this process (of provoking thoughts by questioning the present scenario) is the first step to bring about any change.
This is the vacuum between our beliefs and the real world's rules, this is the vacuum between what we aspire to do and what we are made to do, this is the vacuum between how you want to be and how the world wants you to be..............................
Many of us recognize this vacuum. Some of us choose to avoid it, and others just compromise with it and few others feel that "i won't be able to fight alone" but someone has to start somewhere. And then there are many such "I"S exist, standing together they can & will make a difference.
Here I must put this quote “tragedy of life is not death but what we let us die within us while we live” Norman Cousins
Illusion................ Reality...........................Ideal.......................
Illusion is an erroneous mental representation.
Reality is the state of world as it really is rather than as you might it to be.
Ideal constitutes or exists only in from of an idea or conception or mental image.
In spite of being quite different in their meanings, all these three words are closely related and dependant on each other.
Set of values which I learnt and inhaled in my school days; seem to have no consequences in the so called “professional” world. Then what do you call all these (beliefs),” Analyzing and understanding the context, conceiving the spaces with a deeper meaning than mere aesthetics” Illusion???????? Or an ideal scenario which is to be desired & achieved only in form of a mental image.
What is the solution?
“Learn to compromise” is the easiest way out. Compromise with your beliefs, compromise with your values, compromise with yourself & the list goes on and on and on…
the other day I was watching an interview of a famous actor, Jhonny Depp. One of the girls from the audience, who was about to graduate from her acting course, asked him that, “what advice he would like to give to the young aspiring actors who are about to start their careers” and the answer he gave was not aimed at a particular field or to a particular situation. It was simple philosophy and firm belief of his life which somehow showed the ray of hope to me also.
So without wasting anymore time, it’s over to Jhonny Depp.
“The best piece of advice I had received, was from my mom. When I was a kid, there was this other kid who was bugging me. So I told my mom that this kid is bugging me and she said all right the next time he puts his hand on you, just pick up the nearest piece of rock and lay him out. And then I did. I felt better. It worked for me. For me that was great lesson because someone had invaded my space, my being.
And then many years later, after being turned into a product (he calls himself the product of producers & directors) by a very huge corporation. They had their hands all over me and I could not escape it. At that time I promised myself that I would continue to move forward and do my best. Not to compromise in anyways whatsoever. Not to allow anyone to put their hands on me in the manner that it affects me that way.
So the best piece of advice is to keep moving forward. And don’t give a shit to what anybody thinks and keep moving forward & do what you have to do.”
So I would keep moving forward without compromising with my beliefs, my values & myself. What would happen at the most, I would fail disastrously. Does not really matter, I would fail and I would learn. But most importantly I would be honest with myself “I failed but I tried”
Contemplation
More than a year has passed since i had written anything in my diary. Reason????????? Am i sharing my thoughts and feelings more often with people around me? Or the intensity, with which I live my life, has decreased????
Getting up at 8.00, 9.30-waiting fro the bus, 10.30-reaching to the office, 6.30-leaving for home, 11.00- sleeping time. Hours & hours, days & days and 7 months have passed. If i look back at this time and ask a few questions to myself then i am sure that results would be quite alarming. so i would definitely like to take this opportunity to question myself.
Forget taking pride but what are those few things which have given some happiness & satisfaction while and after doing it? *conceiving the overall spatial and elemental language for drishti consultants was fun*working out sports complex at the conceptual level was quite a fun task. *enjoyed myself while working out the installation for the kensigton reception lobby.
Except these three things i have not enjoyed my run in the profession. Off course learning and playing harmonica (mouthorgan) has been the most exciting and satisfying experience by far.
So what have i done? What am i doing? And hence a few more implied questions why am i doing? Or is this what i want to do in my life? Or where am i heading towards?
These paragraphs may have stated personal experiences and observations. But looking at the matter from a macro level, it doesn't remain only as an individual’s frustration. Hence the whole discussion leads me to a different set of questions. Certain questions hold much deeper meaning than just a definitive answer. In fact these kind of questions provoke a new thought process. Initiating this process (of provoking thoughts by questioning the present scenario) is the first step to bring about any change.
This is the vacuum between our beliefs and the real world's rules, this is the vacuum between what we aspire to do and what we are made to do, this is the vacuum between how you want to be and how the world wants you to be..............................
Many of us recognize this vacuum. Some of us choose to avoid it, and others just compromise with it and few others feel that "i won't be able to fight alone" but someone has to start somewhere. And then there are many such "I"S exist, standing together they can & will make a difference.
Here I must put this quote “tragedy of life is not death but what we let us die within us while we live” Norman Cousins
Illusion................ Reality...........................Ideal.......................
Illusion is an erroneous mental representation.
Reality is the state of world as it really is rather than as you might it to be.
Ideal constitutes or exists only in from of an idea or conception or mental image.
In spite of being quite different in their meanings, all these three words are closely related and dependant on each other.
Set of values which I learnt and inhaled in my school days; seem to have no consequences in the so called “professional” world. Then what do you call all these (beliefs),” Analyzing and understanding the context, conceiving the spaces with a deeper meaning than mere aesthetics” Illusion???????? Or an ideal scenario which is to be desired & achieved only in form of a mental image.
What is the solution?
“Learn to compromise” is the easiest way out. Compromise with your beliefs, compromise with your values, compromise with yourself & the list goes on and on and on…
the other day I was watching an interview of a famous actor, Jhonny Depp. One of the girls from the audience, who was about to graduate from her acting course, asked him that, “what advice he would like to give to the young aspiring actors who are about to start their careers” and the answer he gave was not aimed at a particular field or to a particular situation. It was simple philosophy and firm belief of his life which somehow showed the ray of hope to me also.
So without wasting anymore time, it’s over to Jhonny Depp.
“The best piece of advice I had received, was from my mom. When I was a kid, there was this other kid who was bugging me. So I told my mom that this kid is bugging me and she said all right the next time he puts his hand on you, just pick up the nearest piece of rock and lay him out. And then I did. I felt better. It worked for me. For me that was great lesson because someone had invaded my space, my being.
And then many years later, after being turned into a product (he calls himself the product of producers & directors) by a very huge corporation. They had their hands all over me and I could not escape it. At that time I promised myself that I would continue to move forward and do my best. Not to compromise in anyways whatsoever. Not to allow anyone to put their hands on me in the manner that it affects me that way.
So the best piece of advice is to keep moving forward. And don’t give a shit to what anybody thinks and keep moving forward & do what you have to do.”
So I would keep moving forward without compromising with my beliefs, my values & myself. What would happen at the most, I would fail disastrously. Does not really matter, I would fail and I would learn. But most importantly I would be honest with myself “I failed but I tried”
